Another hump in the roller coaster

So the evil Aunt came and stayed a few days... Like I said before, I have peace about this whole thing. AF still sucks though.

Bum's job is a little rocky at the moment- don't you love that feeling of wondering if your DH will have a job at the end of the day? It truly is day to day right now. Somedays he wants to just throw in the towel, and some days he feels like he can stick it out ... Far from easy on either of us. He is so wiped emotionally at the end of the day that he can hardly muster a hug- let alone any other form of affection. It is very lonely with him hiding in his computer and school work.

One of my closest friends is having a hard time too- How do I help? What can I say? I feel like... maybe there is nothing, maybe i simply just need to be there. I'm here my friend...

I am a fixer- so this feeling helpless kills me - not that my life is a ray of sunshine, but I hate seeing anyone I care about in a funk.

Simple Pleasures

Like peeing on a stick... What fun it is! Seriously- I enjoy it- regardless of the outcome.
I took another test yesterday, after much cramping and no AF... I am now 2 days late, no AF and still a - in the little line box. Funny thing is- I am okay with it- not that pretend "lets put on a happy face" okay, but really, truly okay. I have come to the understanding that God has a plan for us, and that the timing will be perfect for what our family needs. Trying is just too hard on our relationship- Bum is boring when he feels pressured into the bedroom and depressed when we test with a -. Not to say I won't chart anymore... OR poas... cause lord knows I enjoy it emensly- but I am not going to tell Bum about it anymore.

Oh... and making candy duckies for babies showers... THAT is a simple pleasure... LOL

Ketchup is baby crack

Cookies LOVES Ketchup. LOVES it- she prefers it over cheese almost. Have I mentioned she is awesome? Aside from her temper tantrums she is darn near the coolest kid I know. Part of that is mommy-vision, but I love her, and she is impossible to resist. Thanks again to Girl for capturing a wonderful moment in Cookie's life.

Random thoughts

1) Bleeding Gums suck. Flossing causes this, therefore, flossing sucks.
2) Heartburn also sucks. Especially when the stuff that is supposed to help doesn't.
3) I would love to go to bed. Right now. Sleep is a glorious thing, and at the moment I miss it VERY much.
4) I love the smell of chocolate cake baking. I can't really eat it- but it sure smells AMAZING
5) Congestion is of the Devil- especially when it won't go away!
6) Did I mention that I am tired? And Crampy.... YUCK!

My last adventure...

In case you didn't know, we are trying for #2- rather actively at the moment... In fact, the last couple of days have gotten me hoping that just MAYBE this is the month. I am trying not to get my hopes up though- because I don't want to think I am then have ANOTHER negative on the pee stick.
Anyhow, Bum's friend asked us to go out tonight- I wasn't entirely thrilled with splurging booku bucks on a meal out, but as soon as he mention sushi and to bring a friend I wasn't going to complain! Like I said before, I am a sushi addict, and knowing full well that I could pee on a stick next week and see a plus sign, I wanted to get this last hoorah in before baby could have issues with what I ate.
My friend couldn't make it- it was her hubby's night out, and aside from that she has been ill and is also preggo, so the idea of raw fish is probably somewhere between yum and vomit... We missed her company, but maybe next time!!

My cousin is a waiter at the place we chose, so we get a lot of freebies when we go. Cookies adores the bowl of tofu she gets free of charge, and we enjoy our free edemame and soup. The fish was amazing. My conscious got the better of me and I only ate two pieces of raw and then had some cooked stuff- but what I had was fantastic. To top it all off.... Bum's friend paid!!!

I will miss you sushi! See you in __ months!!!

Bum

Isn't he cute?

Open Mouth- insert foot!

I need to learn to read... REALLY. I said I agreed with something without reading it completely. In reality.... It was bossy and not something I would ever agree with. I am afraid I hurt my friends feelings in the process and now I feel downright shitty. Sowwy friend. You know what you are doing- and you do it better than most.

Off to my corner.

Does this my my butt look big?

Well paint my toenails and call me Sally-

I've been TAGGED!

Thanks Fertile Mertile now I have to use my brain!


Five (slightly odd) facts about me:

1. I am a sushi addict. I could eat it for every meal, every day. I'm not talking California rolls either- I mean the raw stuff... SOO good!

2. I hate worms- HATE. I won't touch them even with gloves on. I took a "zero" in a science class once because they were disecting worms. Sorry- can't do it.

3. I would rather have a messy house and happy kids than all the praise in the world for a pretty house.

4. I can't fall asleep at night unless I rub my feet together for a few minutes. One whole side of my family does it.

5. Aside from my husband, I have met all of my friends online- and they have been better friends to me than anyone I have met outside the internet.



Ok... I Tag Kris, Molly, and Jess

Top of the List

Blame it on a sad day- but I am downright pouty.
I wanna be on the top of someone's list- the person they call to talk to when they are bored, sad, happy, excited, whatever... Instead..... I have to find out with the crowd. I feel second rate. Ouch.

Purpose

A Dog's Purpose - from a 4 year old

Being a veterinarian, I had been called to examine a ten-year old
Irish Wolfhound named Belker. The dog's owners, Ron, his wife, Lisa, and
their little boy, Shane, were all very attached to Belker and they were
hoping for a miracle.

I examined Belker and found he was dying of cancer. I told the family
we couldn't do anything for Belker, and offered to perform the euthanasia
procedure for the old dog in their home.

As we made arrangements, Ron and Lisa told me they thought it would
be good for the four-year-old Shane to observe the procedure. They felt
as though Shane might learn something from the experience.

The next day, I felt the familiar catch in my throat as Belker's
family surrounded him. Shane seemed so calm, petting the old dog for the
last time, that I wondered if he understood what was going on.
Within a few minutes, Belker slipped peacefully away. The little boy seemed to
accept Belker's transition without any difficulty or confusion.

We sat together for a while after Belker's death, wondering aloud about the sad
fact that animal lives are shorter than human lives.
Shane, who had been listening quietly, piped up, "I know why."
Startled, we all turned to him. What came out of his mouth next
stunned me. I'd never heard a more comforting explanation.

He said, "People are born so that they can learn how to live a good
life -- like loving everybody all the time and being nice, right?" The
four-year-old continued, "Well, dogs already know how to do that, so
they don't have to stay as long."

Live simply. Love generously. Care deeply, Speak kindly. Leave the rest to God.