We have 1 perfect lil baby! 154 beats per minute, right on track for January 11th, 2008!
My body has almost completely reabsorbed the 2nd sac, so even though we started with 2, we have 1 now, and that is a-ok with me. Bum is really upset, but I think he will be okay.
I will update more after my dr's appointment tomorrow morning. Promise :)
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Water and Big mouths
I remembered yesterday why I didn't want to tell anyone outside of the computer that I was pregnant. We went out on the lake with my parents, siblings and a few of my parent's friends. Despite the fact that I asked that they don't tell anyone- my parents told their friends. While typically not a big deal, they neglected to tell them that they are NOT to say anything around my sister. We had a close encouter with her finding out.
The reason we are not telling her for as long as possible, is because she hardly takes care of the daughter she has (my parent's care for her 90% of time), and is the type of person who would go try to get knocked up just because I am. She wants to be the center of attention at all times. Bum asked last night if we could not tell her until the day before I was due. I told him- with the way I show... I don't think she would mistake it for being fat. All we can do is hope she doesn't try to copy me when she does find out.
Cookies LOVES the water- LOVES it. We had to watch her very carefully because she wanted to swim so much. She and I sat on the back of the boat, and I held on to her life vest while she slid into the water over, and over, and over again. Time for swim lessons I think. It was nicer when she was a little more afraid of the water- because then I didn't have to hold on to her the whole time. She comes by it naturally- Daddy was a life guard, Mommy was on the swim team, Grandma hydrofoils , and Papa waterskis. I just hope she learns quickly where the boundries are when it comes to the water.
The reason we are not telling her for as long as possible, is because she hardly takes care of the daughter she has (my parent's care for her 90% of time), and is the type of person who would go try to get knocked up just because I am. She wants to be the center of attention at all times. Bum asked last night if we could not tell her until the day before I was due. I told him- with the way I show... I don't think she would mistake it for being fat. All we can do is hope she doesn't try to copy me when she does find out.
Cookies LOVES the water- LOVES it. We had to watch her very carefully because she wanted to swim so much. She and I sat on the back of the boat, and I held on to her life vest while she slid into the water over, and over, and over again. Time for swim lessons I think. It was nicer when she was a little more afraid of the water- because then I didn't have to hold on to her the whole time. She comes by it naturally- Daddy was a life guard, Mommy was on the swim team, Grandma hydrofoils , and Papa waterskis. I just hope she learns quickly where the boundries are when it comes to the water.
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Ultrasound
Wednesday at 2:30. So we will know more in a week- and of course, I promise to update here!
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Double Tags
I was tagged by Canape and Ladybugs and Lizards. One was for 7 random facts, the other for 10 things you don't know about me. I don't think I can pull 17 things out of my tuckus, so will 10 random facts you may not know about me be okay?
1. All my "friends" in highschool told me that they would be surprised if I got married before I was 30. Not for any other reason than they thought they would get married first because they were prettier and had more boyfriends.
2. I am terrified at the idea of having multiples. Not because I am afraid I can't handle it- but because I would want to EBF (exclusively breastfeed) both of them, and doing so would never sleep again. Also because my lil Cookies deserves all the attention in the world, and I want to continue to give it to her.
3. The only person I talk to on the phone aside from my husband is my Mom. Everyone else talks to me through IM or text messaging. I think they do it because I sound like minnie mouse on the phone. Along with this fact... I have only met maybe 2 of my friends in real life. The rest of you wonderful people live in the box.
4. I am terribly obnoxious and am surprised people tolerate me. I think stupid things are hilarious, and I say silly things a lot. I think it is half total geek and half insecurity.
5. I used to show dogs full time- traveling almost half the year to shows all over the country. I loved it and hated it. It is hard to live out of a suitcase- but what a thrilling, fulfilling job to have. I miss it, and will never get to do it the same way again.
6. I have to rub my feet together before I can fall asleep.
7. I put sentimental value on everything. Drives Bum insane, because I find a reason to keep everything.
8. My brain melts faster than any other preggo I know. I forget long remembered phone numbers, I forget words, and even how to get to places. Fortunately, I only have these memory slips and have never done anything like leave the water running or not put the car in park.
9. I am addicted to musicals. I can pick up the music faster than most, and I still remember most of the choreography from my highschool show choir.
10. I think too much about what other people think of me- if they are dissapointed, or are judging me, or whatever. I am one of those people who wants to please everyone.
Ok, that is my 10. You all have tagged pretty much every one who would read this blog. If you haven't been tagged yet, I tag you!
1. All my "friends" in highschool told me that they would be surprised if I got married before I was 30. Not for any other reason than they thought they would get married first because they were prettier and had more boyfriends.
2. I am terrified at the idea of having multiples. Not because I am afraid I can't handle it- but because I would want to EBF (exclusively breastfeed) both of them, and doing so would never sleep again. Also because my lil Cookies deserves all the attention in the world, and I want to continue to give it to her.
3. The only person I talk to on the phone aside from my husband is my Mom. Everyone else talks to me through IM or text messaging. I think they do it because I sound like minnie mouse on the phone. Along with this fact... I have only met maybe 2 of my friends in real life. The rest of you wonderful people live in the box.
4. I am terribly obnoxious and am surprised people tolerate me. I think stupid things are hilarious, and I say silly things a lot. I think it is half total geek and half insecurity.
5. I used to show dogs full time- traveling almost half the year to shows all over the country. I loved it and hated it. It is hard to live out of a suitcase- but what a thrilling, fulfilling job to have. I miss it, and will never get to do it the same way again.
6. I have to rub my feet together before I can fall asleep.
7. I put sentimental value on everything. Drives Bum insane, because I find a reason to keep everything.
8. My brain melts faster than any other preggo I know. I forget long remembered phone numbers, I forget words, and even how to get to places. Fortunately, I only have these memory slips and have never done anything like leave the water running or not put the car in park.
9. I am addicted to musicals. I can pick up the music faster than most, and I still remember most of the choreography from my highschool show choir.
10. I think too much about what other people think of me- if they are dissapointed, or are judging me, or whatever. I am one of those people who wants to please everyone.
Ok, that is my 10. You all have tagged pretty much every one who would read this blog. If you haven't been tagged yet, I tag you!
Monday, May 21, 2007
OYE!
So I pulled this little April fools joke on my mom's board back before I knew I was pregnant, saying I have to go to the ER because of severe pain, and when they did the US at the ER they saw 2 sacs.
Went to the ER because of severe pain: check
Went to the Dr's for a follow up today and saw 2 sacs: check
The irony- eh?
We saw 1 baby WITH a heartbeat (thank you God), and then we saw a second sac. Couldn't see a baby, and the sac was slightly abnormal- so that may be what caused the bleeding and I am just reabsorbing the sac-- OR baby #2 is just a few days behind the other.
I have an ultrasound again next week to verify the HB, and to see what is going on in sac #2.
I am a bit in shock, and Bum has been strutting his stuff since the appointment. I am just hoping baby with a HB continues to thrive!
Went to the ER because of severe pain: check
Went to the Dr's for a follow up today and saw 2 sacs: check
The irony- eh?
We saw 1 baby WITH a heartbeat (thank you God), and then we saw a second sac. Couldn't see a baby, and the sac was slightly abnormal- so that may be what caused the bleeding and I am just reabsorbing the sac-- OR baby #2 is just a few days behind the other.
I have an ultrasound again next week to verify the HB, and to see what is going on in sac #2.
I am a bit in shock, and Bum has been strutting his stuff since the appointment. I am just hoping baby with a HB continues to thrive!
Friday, May 18, 2007
It's a good day
There is some BEAUTIFUL news here. I am so excited for her!
I just talked to the Dr... and my levels are rising normally! Thank you God for answering prayers! I have to go weekly for a while, but it will be worth every penny of co-pay. Stick baby! Stick!
These first 14 weeks are more terrifying than the WHOLE rest of the pregnancy. I am praying for all of you getting through it.
I just talked to the Dr... and my levels are rising normally! Thank you God for answering prayers! I have to go weekly for a while, but it will be worth every penny of co-pay. Stick baby! Stick!
These first 14 weeks are more terrifying than the WHOLE rest of the pregnancy. I am praying for all of you getting through it.
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
If you pray...
Bum, Cookies, and I were at the ER until 3am last night because at 9:30 I thought a cyst/fallopian tube ruptured, then assumed miscarriage (I am RH- so had to go get the Rhogham shot). I had severe pain, so I got up to go to the bathroom and then go sit on the couch to wait and see what happened. As soon as I sat on the couch I had a gush of blood (no tissue, just a lot of bright red blood.) After the gush I had a lot less pain, like pressure was relieved, but then I had another. We decided because of the pain to go to the ER, just in case it was something else. I had another gush in the waiting room (still just blood- no tissue) and then the bleeding stopped.
My cervix was closed, and they saw a sack in my uterus, but no baby- whether it is too soon to see(which is what the dr thinks) or I lost lil one is still a mystery. I have to go in for a follow up HCG tomorrow or Friday- as long as it goes up to 22,000 then things are still moving along, but I will have to be closely monitored for the next several weeks. We have been praying for God's will to be done. I have peace about the situation, but I am still scared.
My cervix was closed, and they saw a sack in my uterus, but no baby- whether it is too soon to see(which is what the dr thinks) or I lost lil one is still a mystery. I have to go in for a follow up HCG tomorrow or Friday- as long as it goes up to 22,000 then things are still moving along, but I will have to be closely monitored for the next several weeks. We have been praying for God's will to be done. I have peace about the situation, but I am still scared.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Geezo Peezo
To all you mommy's who are carrying a lil one in you and have toddlers: GOD BLESS YOU. This is HARD. I want nothing more than to sleep- and that just doesn't get to happen. I am insane and have cut out all caffine as well; it doesn't help the exaustion much!
I POAS yesterday again, because I just had to make sure. This time, the line was DARK and showed up before the other line- which must mean my HCG went up a little... I hope.
I have a Dr's appt tomorrow, they want to monitor my HCG levels for a few weeks. I am praying that all is well. I am more "activley" pregnant this time than last time. Last time, I wasn't terribly tired, never was sick, and pretty much no other symptoms. This time around I am ALREADY pukey, my boobs hurt, I am so tired I can hardly keep my eyes open, amongst other things. While none of these things are sure signs that things are going well, they are reassuring, and allow me to get a little sleep at night.
Speaking of sleep, I got a charlie horse last night in my calf in the middle of the night- it is still lingering and I am very uncomfortable. Do people get leg cramps this early on? I remember it at least being October before the leg cramps attacked last time.
My 2 year old lil extra told me that there are 2 little babies coming soon. She doesn't even know about the baby in my belly yet. I love her- she is so awesome.
I POAS yesterday again, because I just had to make sure. This time, the line was DARK and showed up before the other line- which must mean my HCG went up a little... I hope.
I have a Dr's appt tomorrow, they want to monitor my HCG levels for a few weeks. I am praying that all is well. I am more "activley" pregnant this time than last time. Last time, I wasn't terribly tired, never was sick, and pretty much no other symptoms. This time around I am ALREADY pukey, my boobs hurt, I am so tired I can hardly keep my eyes open, amongst other things. While none of these things are sure signs that things are going well, they are reassuring, and allow me to get a little sleep at night.
Speaking of sleep, I got a charlie horse last night in my calf in the middle of the night- it is still lingering and I am very uncomfortable. Do people get leg cramps this early on? I remember it at least being October before the leg cramps attacked last time.
My 2 year old lil extra told me that there are 2 little babies coming soon. She doesn't even know about the baby in my belly yet. I love her- she is so awesome.
Monday, May 7, 2007
SHHHHHHHHHHH..... It's a secret
January 11th... The day after Cookie's due date!
YOUR BABY THIS WEEK
Your baby is two weeks old! He or she is still teeny-tiny, from 0.014 inches to 0.04 inches (1.2 mm)—smaller than a grain of rice.
Your Baby: During this time, the embryo is busy imbedding deeper into your uterus, establishing a strong and healthy bond. The amniotic sac, a protective membrane that surrounds your baby during pregnancy, has also begun to form. As time goes on, the sac will help produce hormones (primarily progesterone) and transmit nutrients from your body to your baby. At this point, three distinct layers of cells are also starting to form: • the ectoderm, which will form the nervous system (including the brain), skin and hair, • the endoderm, which will become the lining of your baby's gastrointestinal tract, plus their liver, pancreas and thyroid glands, • the mesoderm, which will form the skeleton, connective tissue, blood system, urogential system and muscles.
Pray for a sticky, healthy lil monkey!
YOUR BABY THIS WEEK
Your baby is two weeks old! He or she is still teeny-tiny, from 0.014 inches to 0.04 inches (1.2 mm)—smaller than a grain of rice.
Your Baby: During this time, the embryo is busy imbedding deeper into your uterus, establishing a strong and healthy bond. The amniotic sac, a protective membrane that surrounds your baby during pregnancy, has also begun to form. As time goes on, the sac will help produce hormones (primarily progesterone) and transmit nutrients from your body to your baby. At this point, three distinct layers of cells are also starting to form: • the ectoderm, which will form the nervous system (including the brain), skin and hair, • the endoderm, which will become the lining of your baby's gastrointestinal tract, plus their liver, pancreas and thyroid glands, • the mesoderm, which will form the skeleton, connective tissue, blood system, urogential system and muscles.
Pray for a sticky, healthy lil monkey!
Thursday, May 3, 2007
enough stress for a bloody nose
Bum's Check was $200 short this week. That means we are short $150 for rent. Shit head who backed out on moving in with us. I could kill him right now. Our doggies are out of food. The hospital thinks for some reason that we owe them $300. My pain in the ass daycare family (the one with the little one- not the wonderful 2 year old) has backed out on me for the second week. I am going to ask them for the money anyways- I am not a free care service- and their short notice is killing me. We have bills to pay and mouths to feed. Thank God for my parents. They are lending us money. I am sick sick sick to my stomach and worked up enough that I got a nose bleed.
Why you asked? Because I found all these things out in the last hour. Money sucks.
Why you asked? Because I found all these things out in the last hour. Money sucks.
Must.Not.Test
I am out of dollar store tests. No car today. AND I have vowed not to test until Saturday. AF is due Sunday- wait, no Monday. I think I could wait till then, but I don't think my friends can! I am still exausted, and now have round ligamnet pulls, and still feel like a total nutcase. TOTAL NUTCASE. If it tests negative, and AF visits, I am going to check myself into a mental house. Not because I will be driven insane by not being pregnant, but more because I have had all these symptoms!
Oh guess what! Cookies is 100% sleeping in her crib! Still in our room (which I like- cause I know she is safe), but out of our bed. She enjoys the freedom to flop around, and we enjoy having our bed back.
I went out to lunch the other day with a couple friends. We must have chosen the local highschool hangout, because like clockwork, the moment we sat down they all filed in. I must note that high schoolers are incapable of speaking quitely- you know how we teach our kids to use indoor voices? Ya- they forgot all about that. They also don't dress like kids anymore. Dresses and heels, stick thin and huge boobs. I swear I didn't look like that in highschool- none of my friends did either- and high school wasn't that long ago for me. Kinda made my stomach churn. WHat happened to jeans, t-shirts, and a comfy pair of flip-flops? People wonder why teenagers are so sexually active, and they wonder why teen girls are getting raped (as a victim- I am not excusing this in ANY shape or form- and this does not apply to all circumstances), Everything about these kids screams sex. I feel sorry for the boys to some affect.
I am terrified that my baby will become that. Maybe we will move to Pennsylvania and become Amish. Or maybe we can homeschool. In reality, there is no way I can protect her the way I want to. She will do things I won't know about- and that breaks my heart. I want her to make better choices than I did. I don't want her to EVER feel like a party is a way to make friends. It doesn't work that way. I also hope that she- and all my kids, can make the choice not to smoke like Bum and I did. We both also made the choice to stay away from drugs, and I pray that they will too. I guess the most we can do is live to be an example. Gosh thinking about the future is tough!
Oh guess what! Cookies is 100% sleeping in her crib! Still in our room (which I like- cause I know she is safe), but out of our bed. She enjoys the freedom to flop around, and we enjoy having our bed back.
I went out to lunch the other day with a couple friends. We must have chosen the local highschool hangout, because like clockwork, the moment we sat down they all filed in. I must note that high schoolers are incapable of speaking quitely- you know how we teach our kids to use indoor voices? Ya- they forgot all about that. They also don't dress like kids anymore. Dresses and heels, stick thin and huge boobs. I swear I didn't look like that in highschool- none of my friends did either- and high school wasn't that long ago for me. Kinda made my stomach churn. WHat happened to jeans, t-shirts, and a comfy pair of flip-flops? People wonder why teenagers are so sexually active, and they wonder why teen girls are getting raped (as a victim- I am not excusing this in ANY shape or form- and this does not apply to all circumstances), Everything about these kids screams sex. I feel sorry for the boys to some affect.
I am terrified that my baby will become that. Maybe we will move to Pennsylvania and become Amish. Or maybe we can homeschool. In reality, there is no way I can protect her the way I want to. She will do things I won't know about- and that breaks my heart. I want her to make better choices than I did. I don't want her to EVER feel like a party is a way to make friends. It doesn't work that way. I also hope that she- and all my kids, can make the choice not to smoke like Bum and I did. We both also made the choice to stay away from drugs, and I pray that they will too. I guess the most we can do is live to be an example. Gosh thinking about the future is tough!
Tuesday, May 1, 2007
I need a vacation... or a drink.
It is still to early to get a positive on a pregnancy test- if there IS a positive. Yet I am ready to kill my husband, so tired I can hardly keep my eyes open, I have heartburn, and all I can smell in my house is garlic. Stupid brain. If it is too early to get a postitive- it is too early to have symptoms- right? Maybe I want it bad enough that I am making the symptoms.
I am going to the OB/GYN next week to have a general checkup- hopefully she will be able to tell me what is broken. If it is cysts again, then they will probably recommend birth control for at least a couple months to get rid of those. This waiting game sucks the big one. Gotta trust that God knows what is up here.
I am going to the OB/GYN next week to have a general checkup- hopefully she will be able to tell me what is broken. If it is cysts again, then they will probably recommend birth control for at least a couple months to get rid of those. This waiting game sucks the big one. Gotta trust that God knows what is up here.
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