This Thursday will mark 6 months since my miscarriage. Time has absolutely flown. That means that we will have been trying to get pregnant again for 4 months. Not an enormous amount of time, but for a girl who is used to running like clockwork, it has been frustrating to have such an erratic cycle.
I have been dreaming lately that Cookies is our only child. If we have any fertility issues, she will be- because we don't have the financial ability to move in other directions. IVF is not- and will probably never be an option. Adoption is definitley an option- but only if we saved for several years. She is a cool enough kid that I would be ok with that in the end. I wouldn't be mad at God, because he gave us her. We would like more kiddos- but whatever God has planned for us, we will take.
Thank you for all of your prayers for Girl and Doogal He is perfect, and beautiful. I can't wait to meet the little monkey. I already love him and he isn't even mine. He and Girl have been a blessing for me these last several months. Knowing he is coming has kept me sane I think. I think if I had lost without anything to look forward to, every month that I started a new cycle would have gotten harder and harder. But I get to meet baby D. He will probably be born right around when I was due. What an amazing blessing he is.
2 comments:
(((HUGS))) I know it's frustrating. It took me a while after my last m/c to get pregnant again too. It was about 8 months after. (Not saying it will take you that long though!) I was told I would not be able to have children after my very first m/c (I've had 3) but look at me now! My house is full. Yours will be too. You're in my thoughts and prayers.
{{hugs}} You are a lovely person.
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