Clumped

Don't you just love when you are clumped? When you had nothing to do with a situation- in fact, you made a conscious effort to stay out of it, and yet you get clumped into the side that was involved, because the person knows you are closer to one than the other? It is sad that is happens. And the person who ends up hurt in the end? The one who had nothing to do with it in the first place.

My sister who has gone MIA has stopped talking to me. She stopped talking to me as soon as she ran away from home, right after Christmas. She hasn't even recognized Bubbles is in existence. She didn't call on Cookie's birthday- and after Cookies broke her wrist- nothing. I would be fine if she just ignored me- but she has tossed my kids too. And why? Because my mom and I are the close ones, and the rift is between them. It isn't an issue between she and I- although it has become one because of the choices she made. I never said I didn't love her, or even that I was mad at her. But she's pissed because I didn't pursue her. Excuse me? You're the one who took off. Not me. I refuse to play those games. And now she is about to graduate high school. I wanted to be there- but I won't. She sent us an invitation- but it was just that. Breaks my heart. I love her very much. She's my baby sister, and for a long time the one I thought I would be closest to when we all became adults. My heart is wounded- but still open to her. I sent her a letter to let her know that, so now the ball is in her court. She knows where she can reach me.

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On another Note:




Today is Bum and My 3rd Anniversary. Our wedding day was wonderful. I was probably the most relaxed Bride you will ever meet. I watched Veggie Tales while everyone got ready- and even when my flowers came and were completely screwed up, I wasn't going to let it ruin my day. Bum and I would be the only ones who would notice (that is until people saw the FERN that was supposed to be our cake... Damn florist... Note to those yet to be married... Hire a Pro).



Bum and I giggled and whispered through the whole ceremony- it was a blast.


No one really danced at our reception- but we had a jumping castle, a trampoline and a tire swing. I never got to taste the food we spent months planning, but we had fun. And when the day was done, we trotted off to the hotel and our wedding night, where we both promptly fell asleep. So much for consummating our marriage!

Today, I bought him his own Bible. We have been sharing a while, and I would like to do a study with him without having to share. He bought me a pattern drafting set of tools. I am so excited to learn how to try them. And tonight? We will go to dinner with the kiddos, come home- and most likely? Promptly fall asleep.