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I am so frustrated I could spit. False fucking labor ALL night last night- all day yesterday. So even though I didn't feel like I was progressing- I went in for my slightly panicked husband. NOTHING. Contractions ALL day- the ones that hurt- and my fucking cervix didn't even move forward.

Son of a bitch.

I shouldn't whine cause I am not even to my due date- but I hurt, I'm tired and you know, they couldn't have made me feel more like an ass at the hospital. The stupid resident looked at me and said "Do you remember what it felt like with your daughter??? When you feel like that again, you should be ready to come back."

Well thanks asshole, yes I do remember. I remember not having a single painful contraction till the day she came. Then my water broke- and she was here later that day. I thought the second time was supposed to go faster. I am so frustrated right now...

They wouldn't even do an aggressive exam to get things rolling better. Look lady- you try being up for 3 days straight not because you are timing contractions, but because they hurt enough to wake you. Bastards.

I don't want to go back. I went in for my husband- and they talk to me like I am my 2 year old. Thanks assholes-- now I know why women have their babies on the toilet in their bathrooms.

I am so not going to be able to handle this going on for another week. I don't want hugs- I just want them to stop or for them to move forward. GAHHHHHHH.