Yet another plug for Girl

Cause she did my maternities... And she made me feel gorgeous. Not easy for a person who struggles with self image.

My Belly

We had an appointment yesterday. To this point I have gained a total of 28lbs. That is literally HALF of what I gained with Cookies. WOW. Hopefully all of it and more will come off this time.

I am 2cm dilated (Nice to know all these damn BH's are doing SOMETHING), soft and slightly effaced. Bet you wanted to know all the details of my inner workings- didn't you?

Cookies LOVED this Dr. We had never met her before, yet Cookies walked over, handed her a cookie and wanted to hold her hand the whole appointment. I can't help but hope she is the one to deliver Bubbles. She even asked if I wanted Cookies there-- and suggested that we should have her there as long as she didn't get scared. That rocked my world. How many Doctors invite an almost 2 year old to run around a room for hours??

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I have been having the kookiest dreams lately. Most involving my friend who is invited to the birth and how the Dr's thought I was just the surrogate mom- or how I couldn't hold Bubbles till she could get there- things like that, cause I am CRRRRAZY. Only a couple bad ones so far, and lots and lots of how how might look. More than finding out the sex, discovering what they look like is the best part for me. Whose nose, whose ears, how much hair, is it curly or straight?

Cookies had long dark brown curls when she was born. It took less than 24 hours to turn into chicken fuzz (love it) and for all the nurses to adopt her as their favorite toy doll for hair styles. With in a week it had a hint of red, then by 5 months it had mostly fallen out only to be replaced with gorgeous blonde curls. Blonde hair, blue eyes. Boy are we in trouble.

I can't wait to meet him. Will he be a spit fire like his sister? You know- she can scale the entertainment center that is 6' tall. She loves to see people happy- but she isn't afraid to pull out a can of whoop ass if she needs to. Will he be a good sleeper? Cookies sure isn't. Will he be a peanut or a moose? What color hair will he have?

I am so excited- but I am trying also to embrace these last days of just me and my girl. These last days that he is mine and mine alone. There are less of them than more. I am somewhere between terrified and excited.